I completely understand that. I remember how disillusioned I felt during Obama's presidency. It was far better than Bush's (I also remember how absolutely horrible that was) but nowhere near what we were hoping to get after that 2008 campaign. But I have a laundry list of problems in the mental health department. Severe depression, anxiety, all that fuckin shit. So I try do myself the favor of being hopeful even if I have to pretend to be so sometimes.